Besides the fucking end of the world. I read that loneliness among those over 60 is epidemic. ...ya think.

I go for days sometimes weeks without speaking to anyone. This before we were all locked down. My circle of comrades are long gone. The ones still breathing are far away. That, and I've become a shut-in. This before it was fashionable.

All this evolved so slowly over time that I didn't really notice,...well I knew, but didn't. Ya know how that can be.

They say city fire inspectors now look for signs of elder isolation as well as fire hazards. Well we have inspections here, but it's not door to door,...yet.

They just check the building's electrical, and gas systems then split.

If they did bother too look. The signs of isolation are shabbiness unwashed dishes, and the like. I guess general untidiness. A depressive lack of caring. My digs have always been neat however they are not as nice as they once were.

It needs a paint job some plaster work that sort of thing. I mean it's okay, but not as I used to keep it. There just didn't any longer seem to be a point.

Which btw are exactly the signs they look for.

When I was very ill over these last years I knew the only way anyone would know I'd kicked the bucket would be the smell...especially in summer.

I actually left my door a-jar when I thought my time was up so they wouldn't have to kick the door in. I later found that this is somewhat common for the isolated elderly very ill to do...and I thought I had invented it.

If COVID kills my ass I'll have to unlock my damned door again.

Aw well.

Look I'm fine. Just complaining is all. 

That, and I'm really tired of fighting  just to keep the "Senior" stuff I'm 'supposed' to have. I just want to be left alone for heavens sakes.

On That's what everybody wants. Fuck off, and leave us be. We don't want your expensive new toys, and usless tech. We sure as shit don't want your boring evil revolutions from left or right. That shit is so 20th century. 

Just fuck the hell off, and dread dead...the order is up to them. 

Otherwise have a nice day.