"Charlie once a secular saint,...to some"

"Charlie once a secular saint,...to some"

"...on the other hand"

On the Home front have a cough this after the easing of all those symptoms. This from that all winter long flu. A pal here commented that Flu was likely the COVID-19 itself, and I made it through. 

Perhaps. 

I've read of cases exactly like this where 2020 winter "Flu" patients after recovery had COVID antibodies. 
This with them never knowing they had it. Still this cough. An old radio comrade said she has the same, and it's likely stress. 

Makes sense what with seeing the shut down of the world capital I live in. Also being on the cusp of witnessing hundreds of thousands to more than a Million die.

I've been reading as much as I can from both sane, and profoundly insane sources. They both come up with the same numbers. 
However for extremely different reasons. 
The nutters say deliberate population culling. The sane say it's just a straight up Pandemic being badly managed.

Either way this is deep shit.

The math holds up,...it's happening as we watch.
So here we are in rather extreme historic circumstances. 
The unemployed are entering Great Depression numbers. 
Societal stability in hot spots is still intact, but stressed,...so far. 

'Seeing satellite images of mass graves in China, and North Korea,...lately Iran as well. These are not honest about their loses. 

Btw some still say it's just a cold. 
Amazing. Not even #45 sez that anymore. Both some of my former FB acquaintances , and overheard conversations say it's nothing. Add to that people's favorite hates. It only kills black people Chinese poor people liberals Queers old people sinners all that.

Human Beings are such shit.

On the upside with industry shut, and people not stinking up the planet as much. Nature is making fitful returns. The skies are clearing for the first time since the industrial revolution. Animals are wandering city streets, and the seas seem to be cleaning themselves faster that ecologists thought possible.

The Earth Abides.

If we had actually disappeared from the planet. It would be near totally healed in just a few years at the current rate. As I've written I assumed it would take millions of years. 

Weeks it turns out for a first stage healing. 
Just a few years less than a decade likely for near total healing.

This is hopeful,...perhaps we'll learn from this. That, and stop shitting as much all over the damned planet.

I'm doing my part by shutting down my useless unread blogs that are taking up digital space everywhere. 
For now just this unread blog, and my slightly more noticed Tumblr page stays. 

My Tumblr URL >>> https://cybermoonmoon.tumblr.com/

I let my Facebook page go for now.
There's no way to actually turn the damned thing off. So many of my deceased friends still have ghost pages up years after their passing. Me the same it looks like. 

So I guess I have the option of going back after this die-off.
Speaking of which the COVID total is now officially at One Million. 
Actually that's what's been tested or who died. 

The actual number is 10x to 20x's that number.

Think 15,000,000+ to over 25,000,000+ infected if you want truthful numbers. The suppression of case #'s was, and is an economic ploy.
This from early in the Pandemic to keep business open. That or as #45 attempted to use as a strategy for an early re-opening.

40,000+ tested cases in NYS, and the Emerald City reigon where I’m posting from.  About 800,000 in real numbers. These the untested. A nearby hospital is stacking the dead in refrigeration trucks.

As for business as usual. This goes along with our owners public attitude that the poor, and elderly were more than expendable for the good of the economy. They'll be "...glad to die for the economy" it was said.

Hopefully current gerontocracy,...rule by a small number of very wealthy mean old white guys. If we're lucky these shits that want us dead will themselves choke to death. That's how the COVID kill's you.

I'm looking forward to the current leadership of this republic, and the wannabees. Biden, and that moron Bernie to keel over on stage. Ridding us of the last of the 20th century rule by far right Nazi's or left Commie's.

'Of course the grossly un-educated oblivious semi-literate generally stupid horny stoned greedy potentially Nazi Millennials won't be much better. However at least it'll be a different bunch of jerks in our faces with different, but just as destructive obsession's.

So you see it's going to work out swell.

Otherwise I'm fine.

EMPIRE STATE BUILDING

FLASHES RED!

RED FLASHES FOR THE EMERGENCY

As I've written the up side to this Plague is that it will at last kill off the 20th century. That, and hopefully the surviving leadership of that deadly age.

After this Pandemic the 21st century will finally begin.

As for myself I've seen death, and nearly died any number of times...just two years ago my last encounter with the Angel of Death.
I've watched friends, and loved one's die over the years all around me.
I lost four more since last summer...comes with age.

I have no problem with going.

I even like the idea of passing with millions in a classical plague.
This was once a common exit for people before the invention of industrial warfare.
It's going with a few shreds of dignity that matters.
While lying in hospital I'd hear folks all around me praying, actually weeping to invisible men their deities to save them,...they were still afraid of death.

At their age I was surprised.

Religion did that to them.
It took they're dignity from them when they needed it most.
So no other than rational precautions I'm not watching the rash of how-to desperate videos on how to claw onto the last moment of life.

I've had a life thanks.
Any extra is gravy.

The downside is I can't go to the movies,...been a while.
I miss the hot dogs, and popcorn.

It's really not the film.
Most are such shit. It's the ritual. The going the hanging out the sacraments of soda pop hot dogs, and popcorn. That, and the yelled out wisecracks from the audience during really bad films. That's what going to the movies is for.

I miss it, and may never see it again.

That's my only regret.

While in our time darkness. I turned to my old friend Walt Whitman. His Civil War prose from my well thumbed volume “The Portable Walt Whitman” Penguin Classics. I’ve dragged this thing around with me maybe 20 years now.

In particular given our current adventures I’ve been reading his Hospital notes. Written while a scribe with the Interior Department. After his duties he’d go over to the overflowing soldiers hospitals spread about Washington City.
Much like current field hospitals going up in Central Park as I post.

He would give comfort to those of both sides. He’d listen give little gifts of writing paper pencils hard candy. Take mail from them, and whatever small, but vital kindnesses he could.
As he wrote the listening the just being there seemed to these men the greatest gift.

These survivors from our worse most bitter war.
They were boys young teens to older gents like myself. These who fought in this Republic’s most harsh of People’s wars. They tore slashed burned, and shot each other to tatters. This for an idea. America is an idea,…a still disputed one.

Now here we are at yet a new stage of that on going great contest. Still imagining Dreams. Our direction as a "Community of Communities" still being decided though now in the face of Viral opponents.
The outcome remains as it has so long been,…Uncertain.

(…My tunic of the 9th U.S. Colored Volunteer Infantry below.)

This Event has made us equal. We're all the same now all over the world. Even in our divided republic. 
We are made united before this Virus. 

Yesterday the White House said 100k may perish in the best case scenario. Today they upped it to near 300,000. With over 1,000,000+ dead if we keep fucking up as we're doing now.

I think this puts our frivolous mayhem in it's place. 
The Culture Wars, and this hideous demented election. 
The Virus doesn't care what you think.
It is killing in Red States, and Blue.

Me? I feel stunned angry confused thoughtful weepy lonely. 
I'm eating too much. I'm un-believing at what unfolds day by day. I'm in walking distance from a hospital that's stacking bodies in refrigeration trucks,...the morgues over filled.

I sleep much. Strange dreams.

Small things are starting to come apart. 
I found bags of trash in my building's hallways. Folks are afraid to even go out the few feet to the bins. Our Superintendent, and his son are cleaning it up.

Yesterday morning just after 6:00am there's a knock at my door. 
A neighbor from the other wing wanted to pray with me. 

He wanted to come in to pray. 
I declined. Without a word he turned, and went, and knocked on the door across the hall.  
I wondered if he'd been doing such in the whole building.

I said, "...maybe you should go home,...this could be dangerous for you." He thought,...turned, and calmly left. 
He was no crook or nutter. Just a neighbor pushed to this.

This is where we are.