Alright rough fucking night, and morning. No hospital this time...I really really hate it there. Took meds stable now. Hypoglycemic diabetes attacks. The worst yet. Fuck them things.

Those fuckers are scary as hell. 

They have the symptoms of stroke, and heart attacks. Swell huh. Still a little fuzzy. Slept some. So far so okay. If I die I'll let ya know.

Thanks for the love.

......Very ill again. taking meds....no 911 this time....I hate it there.

if my time I want to be home.

loves you guys

what a journey.

"I Declare this the Summer of Roses"

Roses. So many Roses in Brooklyn this summer. This happens sometimes. Even in colonial times it was remarked upon. Every several summers it happens. They lay dormant for near a decade. The bush grown, but few flower.

Then an explosion of Roses.

These shots I took about my 'Hood. I imagine the big parks Central, and Prospect are overwhelmed in red pink white yellow even green Roses.

I went for a walkabout today. We get 10 beautiful days in NYC. Yesterday, and today were two of them. I hope we don't spend these too quickly. Deep Blue Skies bright sun  winds people coming, and going. Life goes on. In the everyday there is a kind of hope.

Vitamin D.

This is what we get from the Sun, and it heals much. Before Civilization it was nearly all the medication we actually needed. Feeling it these last days it makes sense. The bullshit lifts you can just get on with shit.

Been a very long time since I felt anything like this. 10 years of legal meds, and 20 years of coke speed ganja, and assorted other additives didn't come close. A few hours in the sun with clean breezes, and a lack of threats did in two days what 30 years of meds couldn't.

My great feet standing on some actual Earth.

A week of rains cleaned our air, and a front of temperate summer weather gave us this. It's temporary so I'm making the most of it. I know the humidity the air inversions the heatwaves, and the chaos they bring are coming. ...more stupid kids shooting each other over nothing.

Till then,...

"I'm Trying to Calm Down"

I've been for some time badly stressed about my life events, and the world. "Troubles come not singlely, but in Battalions". I think we're all there. Only the details differ.

However I've had a simple insight.

Trauma, and fear changes nothing. Do the best you can with what you have. That, and help those close to you. Be at peace as best you can. No storm lasts forever. We are stronger because of the gale.

Better times will return.

"...crack whore"

I mostly try to avoid this shit however this is cute. Comrades project Trumps tiny approval ratings in the UK on the Tower of London.
Shithead has 21%, and Obama 72%.

In Denmark it's 18% to 80%. 
Denmark was occupied by the Nazis so have long memories.

The fuck-head wasn't even out of the airport in London when he ripped into the Muslim Mayor of the Capital of the United Kingdom calling Sadiq Khan "...a loser". He then went after Bill de Blasio the liberal Mayor of NYC along similar lines. 

Oh yeah he called the American mixed race Princess Meghan Markle "...a loser,...nasty". He has this thing about winners, and losers. Rich good everyone else shit. Funny though poor whites worship him as the coming of Jebus.

Such is America.

If I say anything else about this bucket of pig's vomit I might violate Blogger's guidelines. Btw I suggest looking up Colonial, and Federal era newspapers. These are swell. It shows that yellow journalism or Fox style commentary has been with us from day one.

The New York Courier 1801 referred to John Adams as the "...sop of Irish whores". Which in modern terms mean his mama was a crack-whore. This is the most tame of those missives. 

Like Trump politicians of the time tried to sue the press for slander. We know how that worked out.
We return you now to our blog which is already in progress.

"Trekocide"

Now for something completely different. ...as they used to say on Monty Python. TV,...I don't watch it. Though I have two. This would be unimaginable back in the 1950's, and 60's.  Both having two sets, and never watching either. I watch streaming online programs. 

To the point. 

There are or were programs I loved. These spoke from the heart were weird fun, and optimistic,...in their way. Dr. Who Star Trek, and a few others.

Trek went dark. In the new series the captain whose name I don't remember was a murderous sociopath. Nice huh. The damned thing featured the genocide of whole worlds vivid torture scenes betrayals bad writing bad acting. Basically recent Star Wars.

The same happened to Dr. Who. Finally after 50 years we get a woman Doctor.  However bad direction, and profoundly bad writing in season 11 ruined her, and it.

It's a disaster. 
Even the stupid producer after the fans rebelled said, "...well I guess the writing could have been better".

This has broken my heart.

The previous Doctor worked pleaded for rationality peace justice all the happy food groups. That, and had weird fun adventures along the way as Dr. Who is supposed to do.

See video below. 

Trek, and Who did this as a matter of course for 50+ years. Now they don't. These are dark times so they gave is a dark Trek. 

...Thanks.

'Fucking dummies it's supposed to be the other way 'round!

So like I sez I don't watch TV.
The upside is I'm not complaining about the end of the world wars poverty or my awful life. Just that TV sucks. This I take as an improvement in my attitude.

"2020"

Our Holy Mother.

There's what's her name the Queen of New Zealand.

The exception in world leaders that proves the sad rule.

All the others are thieves murderers liars insane.

Which is just what their slaves want.

People want to be bossed ruled over, and fucked over 

by folks just like them. Makes them happy.

Well Queen Ardern,...the PM of New Zealand.

Anyway Jacinda Ardern's a pistol. Yep a kind hearted brave soul.

She not only talks it, but walks it.

When a Nazi fan boy shot up some Muslims at prayer she showed this backed up toilet of a world how it's done. She went there, and did what was right. Still doing it. She's remaking the NZ economy to be life based rather that thing or profit based.

In the Land of the Free that would earn her a lone gunman.

So I hope the gal lasts.

"Jacinda Ardern 2020"

"This is why I Hate Liberals"

CWS

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That means just a small amount of rice, flour, lentils, chickpeas, beans, fish and oil.

You tell'em Felix.

I'm an elder living in Brooklyn. The crap in that box looks like what I eat. Except for the fish,...I get spam. What do I win? 

Mind you I care for them worse off. 

I'd share what I have with that guy, and or gal up there for sure.

However ya think you might have a contest to see if you can eat like an American elder living on Social Security, and food supplements?

Any takers?

"Party Time!"...I woke up to this shit.

VIRGINIA BEACH —A longtime municipal employee in Virginia Beach shot and killed 12 people Friday afternoon and injured several others inside a public works building before he was killed in a fierce gun battle with police, city officials said.

Police Chief James A. Cervera said an officer was among the wounded but was saved by his protective vest. He said the gunman “fired indiscriminately” with a .45-caliber semiautomatic handgun on several floors of the building, one of many in the complex.

The chief said people were found wounded on all three floors and that one was shot in a vehicle outside. He said four victims were in surgery Friday night.

Fucking party time in the U.S. of A.

I fucking love this shit. I used to be horrified. Now I'm just keeping score like at a Brooklyn Dodgers game when I was little. Yeah I actually saw the Dodgers play at Ebbits Field. I should get some sort of medal for that.

The latest shooter was a long time worker at that Muni-Center. I imagine he got laid off after 20 years, and knew this meant poverty, and eating spam when he was lucky. So he arraigned a going away party for himself.

Hey everybody is guilty so everybody dies.

Makes a kind of demented desperate sense. A lot of this going around. Workers screwed, and goes nuts because they know what comes next. Poverty, and eating cold Spam,...if they're lucky.

Three fucking man-killer guns plus ammo for every breathing asshole in this country. 300,000,000+ assorted shooters for the mob to play with. All ya need is motive, and opportunity of which there's rather a lot these days.

Good hunting.