Speaking of Death. ...see below. Been having spasms of agony. They come, and go...annoying as hell. I scribbled this just after the last one.
"Pain sudden blinding. Screams suppressed. You shudder. Left breathless. Then gone. Till next time."
Always keep a pad, and pen handy at ya bedside in case Angels speak or all hell breaks loose,...ya never know.
I don't know why I write. It all goes into a dumpster when ya go. I saw that in that douc about old folks kicking the bucket alone. See several post below.
Poor bastards digs are cleaned out by companies that specialize in that shit. All the stuff from a life just dumped. Family pics treasured through most of a century being ground up in the back of a garbage truck,...I saw this.
In Japan where all this happened they do have one nice tradition. They believe dolls have souls. So you can't toss or destroy them. That company had a "Prayer Room". I thought it was some place for the employees to chill after their sad work.
Not.
It was a floor full of Japanese dolls.
Hundreds of them saved from the digs of old guys that died alone. These forgotten or just unwanted by family. However their dolls live on. If we had that here I could take some comfort. As it is my little guys will be shredded like everything else here.
A lifetime of art notes personal photos like above. Stories journals recordings of decades of my radio work. Media history organizations aren't interested. I wasn't famous enough.
Fuck it. I had some laughs.
That's fucked.
ReplyDeleteI've got to see about an archive for my drawings.
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Find a way of preserving some of what you did. Online is not secure as we know. They have bots that can hunt, and destroy whatever information/data they want removed,...killed from history.
ReplyDeleteSome few of my things are preserved in small universities here, and overseas. Hopefully some items will be mislabeled, and "lost". They may then survive to a less grim time. Quietly sitting out the dark ages till the light returns.
I can see the footnote now.
20th century American Negro artist materials found in the achieves of Gothenburg University Sweden.
The trove of mid-late 20th century ink drawing notes journals, and stories plus several actual chemical photographs were first discovered by students in 2234. Ironically it was lost again not to be relocated till 2378 during the 500th anniversary celebrations of the library.
The materials are a precious find. This in that they add to confirmation that social elements existed that foresaw a culture similar to what we have now. This amazing coming from the era of scarcity wars, and genocides.
The artist Sidney Smith whose great grandmother was a Slave during the first civil war of the former United States. She lived till 1950 the year of Smith's birth. Her photo included in the materials.
Despite the terrible persecutions he suffered in those times he made works of imagination, and beauty.
Incredibly Smith was an apparent associate to several of the few other known figures of what were then called "Peaceniks". Missives from both Hakim Bey, and Allen Ginsberg addressed to Smith were found in the trove.
In one of his journals he makes reference to meeting the great composer musician Louis Armstrong when a young child,...astounding.
Further, and this most amazing,...correspondence with the mysterious "Z". He known for a body of work still being slowly found, and pieced together. Notably the current excavation of his Temple of the Holy Boy. Though some say "Beautiful" Boy. Records being mostly destroyed during the 2nd then soon after 3rd US civil wars. This making exact knowledge difficult.
That there was not one, but actually several Temples is implied in the Smith trove. This has the cultural anthropology world in a whirlwind of speculation, and plans for renewed searches.
The surviving, and reconstructed nude statue of the mythical Tadzio from the so far only known Temple is on display at the Moscow Conservatory of Cultures.
The University of the Greater Brooklyn Archipelago has requested a portion of the Trove as artist Smith resided on Brooklyn Island most of his life. (...during his lifetime it was part of the City of New York before the major seas rises.)
That, and in his journals he made many references to the university when it was merely a small branch location. Allen Ginsburg was a professor whom Smith it is thought visited with there.
The Queen will be the keynote speaker at the Gothenburg 500th anniversary dedication of it's new wings. On hearing of the trove She is to make remarks about the Peacenik movement as being our spiritual ancestors.