"...invests"

A friend asked if my religious past might help me in these crappy agonized fucked up times. I was going to say, "...are you fucking nuts, but decided to be polite. I said, "...no".
   
I explained being Christian, and fucking Roman Catholic at that cured me of all interest in any organized mayhem. Ya had to be there.

Regards my former cult. The amazing thing is that now over a Billion folks are down with it. For Twenty Centuries, and more they lived in terror of obeyed went out persecuted burned, and murdered mountains of humanity.  This on the alleged word of an invisible man, a human that lives in the sky watches, and judges them.

Wow.

They also insist as they drip with innocent blood that their g-d is one of love. Love on his terms, and only his terms. It's no wonder that when the Native folks first heard this guy described they all assumed he was a demon. ...tough sell that.

So other than eating sugar free ice cream no g-ds are doing me much good in my condition. While on the ward assorted holy people came by with da lawds ,..."good news" as they put it. To be polite I'd usually smile, and nod till they went away.

If I told them I was queer a commie pornographer anarchist trouble maker BL race mixer. They might have tried an exorcism. As much fun as that would have been. I was really too tired to join the festivities,...so smile I did, then fell asleep.

For those friends in need of further explanation of my attitude. I refer you to my post "Lynched". This about half a dozen posts scrolled down.
I have a complex spiritual life just no religious one.

G-d or G-ds if any are beyond our comprehension.
All of our attempts to institutionalize the unimaginable...
have been unfortunate.

Remember:

"Jesus saves, but Moses invests,...smart man."

Always liked that one,...an actual priest told us that in class once.